Waiting in the carpool line is unusual for me---I'm typically the second to the last in line, tires squealing. Today was different because I had a yummy book that was begging to be opened and I deliberately chose a waiting place in the summer school pickup lane. In just 15 pages, "Chocolatherapy",by Karen Scalf Linamen, has pierced my heart.
"What are we hungry for?" Karen poses this question and offers several possibilities: escape, love, community, sleep, etc. MMmmmmmm, sleep. It beckons me. You'd think that I exist on 5 hours or less, but, no. I get a decent 8+ each night. Maybe I've made my bed look too inviting, with its soft quilt and memory foam pillows! While sunning at the pool, I have a recurring daydream that involves a hammock under a breezy sky with the scent of honeysuckle in the air. Invariably, I'm interrupted by the whining sounds of "Mooooommmmmyyyyyy!".
Can I be honest? At that moment, I just want to escape. Do you ever feel that way? I have a very hard time admitting this because I'm hyper-aware of how empty and lonely my life would be without the voices that are calling my name. For years, I denied or quickly jumped past those trapped, exhausted feelings. I've covered them with every form of M&M, flavored coffee, or ice cream. Why? Good question.
Answer: immediate endorphin rush. (If I were a runner, I'd be able to solve a few dilemmas with one swift move.)
I think "Chocolatherapy" is going to be a God-sent step forward for the growth of my soul this summer. If I were able to take the laptop to my bedroom, I'd probably be able to share more of my thoughts at the moment. As it is, the Apple airport has me bound to the kitchen desk and the natives are restless for food.
Would you like to read along with me? I'd love the company!! Post a comment and include an email addy. The book is kinda necessary...the chocolate is optional. :-)