Hi...right now, you're dreaming of a future that is actually going to be a fork in the road. You want a husband, children, cottage by the sea. You also hope to have a career, be independent, do something memorable. In 1980, both goals are attainable, just not in the exact order you are hoping for.
I'm thrilled that you are immersed in the energy that is uniquely "high school". Enjoy your size 5 jeans and do not sell your cheerleading uniform to the girl who takes your spot upon graduation. Trust me, you will need to see it for future motivation. In fact, embrace the whole aerobics trend by becoming a certified instructor; don't ever give up on moving your body. You will need the strength and confidence that fitness can give. Start looking for colleges this year. Be brave. If jumping state lines, outrageous tuition, or a suite filled with strangers seems too intimidating, APPLY ANYWAY! Your grades will open more doors than you can fathom, but you need to believe in yourself. Which reminds me, keep singing. Sing for joy, with passion. Believing in yourself applies here, too. God will keep providing opportunities for you to use this gift. And yet.....you may look back and see many places where you walked the other way, afraid that you weren't good enough. In the end, it isn't about a career or a deal. It's part of who you are and will always be, a source of solace and truth. (Oh, um, sing during the prelude at the wedding ceremony, from the loft, but NOT at the wedding reception.)
Now, I'm going to tell you something that will transform your life. You know how your heart just aches when you break up with a guy? How you have a hard time opening your eyes in order to see another worthy boy? This is because you have a serious problem with "goodbye", which stems from waving to your daddy from the front porch steps and never seeing him alive again. You're going to have issues with anything you lose: keys, papers, jewelry, friends, etc. The sooner you realize this, the better; you will be free to enjoy your relationships for what they are, in each space of time that they are yours, not expecting more than is available, not mourning what is better gone. Very soon, In a time of huge transition, you are going to seriously fall in love. Go ahead. But don't clutch him or overanalyze the whole thing! I'm not giving permission for you to compromise your/our moral values, but let yourself go a little. Also, over the next eight years, don't listen to anyone who tries to spiritualize your love life. If someone says, "I heard from God that 'he' is the one for you", run. Then, find an in-depth Bible study and a church with a strong foundation in scripture. You'll be a decade ahead of yourself.