For no solid reason, I have always viewed my 46th birthday as being the halfway point. Seems as if I expected to live at least 92 years! Today, as the minutes ticked by, I decided that I don't want the next half of my life to be "downhill". First, this past year has most definitely not been a mountain top experience! Second, I don't enjoy the downhill drop; my favorite part of a roller coaster ride is the race to top each hill, the powerful rush after the screamin'.
I'd like for a portion of my upcoming days to be a gentle, rolling stroll. Not a flat track....that would be mind-numbing. I just need to get off the thrill ride for awhile. My family has navigated the twists and turns of chronic illness, job uncertainty, and income loss. Each of those alone is intense, but put them all together and you have a recipe for serious stress.
In her book "Symphony Of Secrets", Sharon Hinck headed a chapter with these words:
"Verismo: A term meaning 'realism', applied to Romantic works, especially operas,
of the late 19th century that have to do with unpleasant realities of life."
Hhmmm, this has been the pace of my life since the turn of the 21st century.
My birthday wish is for life's music to become softer and sweeter, for the ride to move at a slower pace.
Sing me a lullaby, ok?